Maybe....

Maybe .... i am just not up to it.
Just not good enough.. thats how i feel.
Have you experience what is it like to not be able to do what you are passionate about cause you have this stupid weakness in you.. that you try very hard ( ignorant abt) that is bugging you.
Nel you are a leader, you are to perform this way if you want to do what you are passionate about....
I've TRIED........................................................................................
It make me wonder... maybe my passion is just a passion.. i've seen alot of people with so much passion in something in God. but they nv about to achieve... because God just have another plan for that person. I've start to think this way.

But ... i am willing to go through it still. By his grace i will stand.