Learning from CPM

CPM has finally ended. It was a great experience in kallang theatre ministering to more then 2k people ( i think ).

Actually am not satisfied with what I have done in the CPM in term of supporting the WL and I think the CPM is not the standard that we all think it can be also ( that is what both me and jasmine think) The PnW is well done, but if the prayer part able to work well with the PnW part i think it will be great.
I told jasmine the reason why i want to join in theback up singers for the CPM Worship team. The reason is simple, i just want to put myself in the shoe of a support singer, so that i will understand from a role of a support singer. I realise a few thing:

1) Develop chemistry and coordination with the WL is important. So that we will feel safe in singing free worship .
- not that i am saying that we are not allowing room for holy spirit to prompt us what to sing. But i believe that we must do what is humanly possible as well.

2) Must trully personalise the songs.
- Dont think that no one will knows , God KNOWS!

3) Have fun on the stage.
- Not trying o perform to turn man's attention unto ourselves... but to inspire congregation to abandon themselves in praising God with all their might.


These are a few things that i learned. Though only been a support singer for once, but is a good experience for me ultimately. Hopefully to have more chance also to be exposed to such a big setting and events so that i can build myeslf towards that stature as well.

Definitely all these things are what i learn when i am called to function in the role. But there are certain thing that I learn as well when i am on the stage leading.
Some questions came across my mind :

1) " Nel , do you trully meant every single words that you sang in the song? "
2) " Nel , do you trully have love and compassion towards the congregation that you are leading during the praise and worship?"
3) " Nel , Do you trully believe that worship can be powerful tool for evangelism?"


All these questions just pop up when i am dancing and singing on the stage. what leaves in me the deepest impression is actually the 2nd question.
" do i really love the people that i am leading , in the praise and worship session?"
Worship leader is like a pastoral leader as well, every week we are feeding the truth to them just that we have music accompanied to it while preacher dont .
It really struck me and caught me thinking. I seriously dont think that i am there or anywhere near there at all. The more i think about this question, the more i realise the disgusting weakness that i have in my life. The more i think about this question, the more i think what ever i give to the lord when i lead in saturday service is FAR FAR off what God have actually destined worship to be every time when we start blowing or playing our instrument , when we start opening our mouth to sing . -- Man meet God, Life changed.
I just love psalm 51. david wrote this psalm when nathan confronted him about this adultery with bathesheba. from this psalm you know that he met God and his sincere repentence and because of this, he realise how much God love him cause of his unfailing love.
Man are sinful people, we need not always tell or nag at people how sinful they are( not that we shouldnt preach about sin , we shd , cause jesus preach it too!) cause when they meet God, God's holiness will contrast out the sinfulness of man, but yet we dont feel condemned because we realise that what is fall short is add up by the very blood of Jesus. Because of Jesus we are make righteous again. when we experience the presence of God and understand the redemption purpose of christ, gratefulness filled up our very heart.

Thats the power of praise and worship. Not because that I love music, but because its biblical. Levites are the frontline people during battle. I dont think any one of us when during battle will put all the lame, injured or mental problem people infront of the battle line right? if we able to understand this simple logic, i think God is way way way wiser then us. =)
If that is the way God operate when fighting a war, then is important for me to take it seriously and fight this spiritual warfare well.

Now what i trully want to focus on is trully love the congregation , servanthood attitude.

may God's strength be with me. The joy of the lord is my strength. =)