I am not a Pastor with the capital "P" but i am a pastor too in leading the flock to love and adore God

been thinking about worship leading recently
I am thinking of myself as a worship leader recently.
How am i as a worship leader??
I find that i am stuck. .. maybe not stuck, but i dont see a BIG breakthrough yet.
How deep am i in God? i wonder...... God.. how deep are you????
i really want to grow in my intimacy with you. I want to write song that really sing that very heart of God .. sing about God.. but i cannot write till i know how he look, "sound", "smell", talk like in a deeper manner..

Recently was thinking about the discipleship in singers ministry, the people that are built in the singers ministry, the kind of worshipper that was built in the ministry who stand on the stage every sat/ sunday inspiring hundreds and hundreds of people loving God through praise and worship.
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Then i look at myself,
lot of work to do.... character and skill. I want and desire both.
I really believe with al my heart about the singers ministry.. that it will grow, prosper and flourish. we can and will be spiritual being that trully usher the very presence of God to the non believers and non believers.
During the wam vision night, ah long talk abt the hillsong kids pnw session, the WL leader actually lead the kids to say sinnners prayer during the praise and worship itself.
It was really a amazing and what i really looking for.
Praise and worship is a evangelism tools. A heartfelt worship from believers that influence the very heart of the non belivers and draw them to CROSS the line of unbelieving to believing. That is the reason of praise and worship. Love should be so fully and exploding through praise and worship because God is love. when God comes and dwell, love reside in the presence.

Been hearing people saying that difference in music, lighting... loudness...
Loves melt all differences, cause we all are melted by the love of christ , in his presence we become ONE in him.
Worship is less of me, but more of God. Its a private life effort that bring out during that 20-30mins praise and worship session to be explosive and dynamic but yet there is a sense of stillness and reverence in his presence.
Character and relationship in God is so so crucial.

Developing myself as a Godly and God honouring PnW leader.

Singers ministry will definitely grow!